Stowing my twitching palm….

I stop just inside the door of the Boathouse to switch the light on, then gently set her down on the wooden floor. My palm still twitching from earlier at dinner, I am more than ready to give Miss Steele her punishment.

After scanning the room, she moves towards me, her eyes soft, yet filled with worry. She begs me not to spank her..not while we’re here at my parents house, she pleads. Her fingers are now tangled in my hair, her body pressed hard against mine..her gaze sweet and innocent. My anger slowly beginning to subside, my twitching palm safely stowed for the time being. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still extremely upset, and I will be spanking her..I will just hold off and do it later.

She pulls my face gently down to hers and our lips meet. My eyes close..my hands instinctively begin to slide slowly down her sides, then wrap around her waist pulling her even closer. The kiss deepens, both of us breathing heavily like two horny teenagers, yet its a soft kiss..filled with passion.

No, no , no…this is hearts and flowers…something of a Hollywood love story sort of kiss. Christian Grey does not do long, soft…sweet lingering kisses. What the fuck am I doing? I kiss with aggression..heat.. possessiveness. I know that I told her I’d try..but, this feels wrong. Or does it….

Mrs. Robinson never kissed me this way…I never kissed any of my submissives this way. Am I really ready to give Anastasia what she wants? I’m starting to wonder. Feeling confused, I pull away letting my arms drop away from her body and down to my sides. My stare is dark..almost empty.  “What are you doing to me, Anastasia?” I look away as I rub the back of my neck with my now sweaty palm. 

“Kissing you.” She replies in a sweet soft..confused voice. “You said no to me.” I shake my head. “No one has ever said no to me before, Anastasia.”  She looks up at me as if it all finally makes sense…why I was so angry before. Little does she know just how many things I’m actually upset about at this point.

“You’re mad because I said no..at the dinner table?” Giggling, she raises her brow at me. Christ..here I am trying to be the good guy and not beat her ass here at my folks place like she has asked,  and she’s going to giggle at me? Fuck that, my palm now begins to twitch again..more now than before. 

“I’m mad because you never mentioned Georgia…I’m mad because you went drinking with that asshole Jose again…after he tried to seduce you when you were extremely intoxicated. Then… he let you leave with me…a perfect stranger!” I can feel my face turning red as it breaks a sweat from my outburst. “What kind of friend does that, Anastasia?” Shaking my head, trying to calm down a bit. ” And, yes…I’m mad because you closed your legs on me at the dinner table.” Her mouth drops open from that declaration.

I take a couple of steps and move close to her again…my fingers now on the hem of her dress…”I want you, and I want you now.” Yes, Miss Steele, this is what happens when I get angry. I go from a semi normal human being, right back to the twitchy palm controlling asshole that we all know and love. 

“If you’re not going to let me spank you..which you deserve…I will fuck you, right here..right now, on this couch. And, believe me… this will be for my pleasure..not yours.” And with that, I lift her dress and slide my hand between her legs. “This…is mine. Do you understand?” She nods as I slide a finger in, moving it slowly in and out. 

I remove my finger and spin her around. She is now bent over the arm of the couch..her silky dress bunched up at her waist. I quickly undo my pants, sliding them down just enough to free the throbbing erection that has been hiding since dinner. “This will be quick.” My tone harsh and to the point. “Do not come, or I will spank you whether you want me to or not.”

One hand now on her hip, the other holding my cock…I position it at her entrance and drive it forcefully inside of her. My thrusts hard and swift..my eyes dark and sadistic. This…is the Christian Grey that we all know and love. The Christian Grey that will never change…

Possessive, dangerous and fucked up…